Let me grow
& allow me to flow.
My process may be slow
but the journey so relevant.
Understand there’s no destination,
revealing my petals never ends.
Stuck between a rock and a hard place,
my focus on breaking ground.
Feeling completely lost,
hoping to be found.*
*Please do not share without credit.
I’ve been writing this post intermittently for months and each time I re-read it, it felt incomplete. The process of growth is not finite, so naturally each time I revisited it.. I felt as though I had so much more to say.
People suffer from pain and call it evil, yet in reality it may be growing pains of the Spirit.. the changing of the body into a finer and more spiritual substance.
– Henry Thomas Hamblin
Truth is, change isn’t easy and naturally, growth requires change. We are a generation of Uber’s in 3 minutes, Apple Pay with no spending limits & meeting a potential date with a right swipe; everything is so easily accessible. The negative to this mentality is that once the going gets tough – we just throw the towel in or complain about everything being so difficult. The flip side is that there is so much beauty in growth, the things we can’t see or explain but we can feel. There’s a feeling of internal harmony as things fall into place as well as the ability to create your own milestones.
When will you begin that long journey into yourself?
It’s a scary thought – feeling like you’re unsure of yourself. As you mature, your likes and dislikes change, your list of responsibilities grow and you become more conscious of self. I feel as though your 20s (and maybe even your 30s) are a time to explore different things and delve into different experiences. All of this contributes to that journey of discovering yourself. You may find you have hidden talents or you have a love for some kinda outdoorsy adventure; either way, you’re learning about yourself. We don’t realise how important this journey is! It’s so important to take the time to uncover your own identity to avoid just ending up emulating someone else’s. There’s only one you. Someone can walk like you, talk like you and maybe even look like you but nobody else can recreate your essence. That’s what makes you uniquely you.. that’s what defines self.
Your elevation may require isolation.
Accessibility. Let’s go back to WhatsApp, Snapchat, Instagram, iMessage, Facebook, Twitter… the list is endless. Stop being so accessible. There’s a difference between being lonely and being alone and it’s imperative that you do the latter often. There comes a time in everyone’s life when basically.. life kicks in. That existential crisis. Everyone has that morning you wake up and wonder what exactly you have accomplished in life, what your purpose is and whether there’s more to life than your current routine. Solitude or isolation creates a safe space for you to listen to your inner voice, heart and mind. Personally, my biggest learning curve has been self-reliance; spending time alone often has taught me how to make decisions for myself without the need to consult someone first. Being alone gives me time to think and reflect about both personal and professional decisions, it eliminates distractions which allow me to be more productive in personal goals/projects and it is all round amazing for my mental well-being in terms of recharging.
Whatever your mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve.
I’ll repeat something I said in my previous post… If you want to grow, you must challenge everything including your own thinking and beliefs… Remember we are confined by the walls WE build. The scariest part of going through changes when growing is having to practice detachment. There will be times when you won’t be able to foresee what’s going to happen but the major key here, is to maintain a positive mental attitude and let life be.
Love and light,